Life is easy kya karein

After the anger outburst and simmering, there is a lot of self introspection. I go through every thought and strategy to justify myself. My righteousness seems the only thing that matters. I wrote the earlier post after simmering for a week but the anger was still evident. I cursed and I cussed.  Then the question was why am I still here in this place, if I have so many grudges? Apart from the husband's work being here. The anger continued in all areas of my life till my body. I had a catch in the back. Louise Hay confirmed that it was the message: Get off my back.  I went to the family Doctor and he just said that back ache is always due to stress. When did it start? I knew exactly the moment on Monday, I experienced pain. I smiled. He said that I will not give you medicines. Please continue doing your yoga with full awareness. I paid the fee and stepped out feeling better . Doc had insisted I join the Yoga class and he is a regular there for last 15 years. Next day at Yog...

I have been dealing with a lot of disappointment and anger. Expectations not being met seems to have become the done thing. Whether it is family or friends or retailers. Same story everywhere. I simmer in the rains. Walked into a local exhibition of handmade goods at a small wedding hall. Bought some local pickles from a vendor and some unpolished poha from another guy. Came home very excited that my next day's breakfast was taken care of. When I washed the poha  before cooking, all chocolate brown colour started coming out. I saw this was not dust but colour. That evening I was passing by the exhibition, I decided to go and tell the vendor about the colour in the poha. As soon as I said that and in a calm manner I may add, all hell broke loose. This vendor , a man of  50 started screaming at me. He said I have never eaten village poha and I do not know what it is all about. I told him that I can make out the difference between colour and dust but he started getting very agg...