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Shattered Dreams

As I barged into the kitchen after my bath, I saw tears in the maid's eyes. I thought its due to chilly powder coz she is not crying while chopping onions. I asked her and she burst out crying in my arms. Her boyfriend had just called and said his mom said no to their marriage. She kept sobbing and I was just there. He said if he goes against his Mom s wishes he will never be happy in his family life. The girl s aunt had married the boy s chacha against the family s wishes years back. So the Mom will not agree because of the family rivalry. I then heard her on the phone with him while making rotis. She is a pro at making rotis while talking on her cell phone. Todays call was different. She was telling him I cant live without you. You ll move on but no one will want to marry me coz all know about our relationship. She was begging him to reconsider his decision. He told her if you want you can come and talk to my mom. She said I am willing to wait for not two but five years for you t
Every time I have to write there is fear just like before your child s first school interview. I dont know what am I scared of or am I fearful of creating something new. The people who read the blog are my friends and are very kind to me and my writing. So who am I so fearful of. I like writing and that for sure is not hardwork for me. I am lazy and that i think makes me fearful. But I am not lazy in cooking and stuff like that. It is more about things I dont like doing. So what stops me from writing regularly ? I am still pondering over this. The Yoga class has long stopped after paying for the full year and getting a month s membership free. The guilt keeps coming back that why i do not want to go for class. The connection goes to all the thingsthat i have left incomplete. Why did I stop driving and never took it on again. Now fear stops me completely. I have realised my fears but not managed to overcome them. They say self realisation is half the battle won. I do not experience anyt